I decided to enjoy my life as it is. My life isn’t that bad. I have a wonderful boyfriend. <3 He is not perfect of course – he sometimes annoys me but at least he’s here with me and for me. (hearts) Well, I’m mainly writing this because of my so-called high school “friends”. Yes, I’m kinda dedicating this post to them. I don’t want to share what happened recently. Let’s say, I finally realized that they’re not my true friends anymore. Maybe before they were but right now, it’s so clear that the friendship is all over.
Last night, I attended the Backstreet Boys concert (I am blogging about this later) in Araneta Coliseum – alone. It wasn’t bad – going out alone. I used to think that I always need to be with someone when going out. But really, doing things all by yourself is much, much alright than what I imagined. It may look like lonely from outsiders view but it actually isn’t. This reminds me of the Japanese drama I’ve watched last fall – Ohitorisama. The main woman, Akiyama Satomi likes to do things all by herself. She wasn’t really lonely. In fact, she enjoys her life. And even though she ended with someone (who’s younger than her, btw 8) ) in the end, it wasn’t really an “I’m-alone-and-lonely-I-need-someone” kind of story. Well, she still enjoys being alone at the end of the story. (thumbs up)
So what I’m trying to say is who needs those friends of mine? I was like a fool trying to mend things. I used to think I need to know their side and them to know my side but with what happened last night, I think it’s really the best if I forget about them – surely, they don’t care about me anymore. Do I sound bitter? Well, I think being bitter is better than having false hopes that we can all still be friends.
So I’ll just enjoy my life as it is, work hard for my loved ones, get instant life insurance quote, treat myself alone if Floyd or my mom can’t come and meet new people or bond with old friends. I still have my college friends and online friends, anyway. d;
I am at peace right now. I can be happy now. Yay! :haha: