Since I blogged about my recent emo thoughts about my life and career, I feel that it’s right to update this blog with the recent turn of events. So, the day after the interview (and while I was typing the previous blog post), I received a call from the company. They told me they will test me for a week to see what I can do and that I will be getting paid for this trial period. I said ok because well, it’s my chance to possibly get a new job. But to be honest, I’d me much relieved if I didn’t get the job. Although, I’d be heartbroken, at least I know I will not embarrass myself. I’m only feeling this because I know my limitations and this new job is kind of new territory for me. And like, I don’t know half of the job responsibilities. I do think that they’re nothing that I can’t learn but I feel like I need more time to fully learn them before actually accepting or having a job like this.
But I’m here now and I did accept the offer. And I’ve been learning and practicing this framework which is kind of my assignment last weekend before I start today. I’ve think I’ve learn the needed parts and for the rest, there is a documentation that is in the framework’s website. What I am completely nervous about is when there is a part of the project that I need to do and I am completely clueless about it.
I guess maybe because the application process took for a week and I had to go back to their office three times. Then I know I failed the exam and the interview was so unclear, I don’t remember most of it. And now they are putting me on a “trial” period (I’m not officially hired yet, I feel like it’s still part of the application process) which puts a lot of pressure on me.
The only positivity I am seeing is, maybe they see a potential in me or even think I am qualified because this is the business world, they wouldn’t like play around accepting people who can’t do the job. So I guess, that gives me confidence – just a little though.
I know maybe I shouldn’t worry about these things that much. I just hope that they take things slow and let me work on easier projects first.
By the way, the job follows UK time which means my work is from 4pm to 1am. I am also kind of nervous to go home at 1am in the morning but I guess I just have to. Wish me luck.